August 25th, 2011, 10:58 am

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August 25th, 2011, 11:28 am


@Scotteh just so you know, there are two kore pages updated beyond this one, they took me ages DI actually, that fear is SO NOT pathetic, and I think is the reasons why a lot of people have their problems, ECt. - at least, that is one of my greatest fears too D: you are pretty impossible not to like tho scotteh!! :'D

October 18th, 2019, 4:41 am


August 25th, 2011, 11:06 am

My heart lept when I saw this has been updated so I guess that means i am loving it XD Will this be printed at all? : D

I think one of my greatest fears is being unliked tbh XD;; *pathetic*

Can't wait for moar!! x

September 10th, 2011, 3:09 am


^that is scary D:
Right now its that someone (especially family!!) will find out that I just smoked my first cigarette xD (even the ones who do every other drug bahaha, plus I wanna keep this private for some reason even though my friend would be like 'why won't you smoke weed or drink with me but you'll smoke cigarettes?! D8< why u no tell me blahakgfhskg' btw I'm 19 so I'm legal xD haha).
They taste and smell disgusting btw. Also I was confused so I ended up googling it. xD;;
I think I thought they might smell better than I expected because my dad might have used to smoke menthol...and it was mixed in with his nice zinc-2000 soap. But the boxes I always remember were Marlboro reds...or gold. Hmm maybe they were gold, because now he buys red and they don't smell too good. Idek what gold is though. But they're expensive so I'll probably wait until I pass this test and get this job and then try and figure it out slowly -_-
(like smoke once a month and then run into a shower and scrub the hell out of everything and burn my clothes HAHA) but god I'm so paranoid, I kept thinking someone I know or didn't want to know would find me somehow xD (mom: surprise! :D..even though she lives 3 hours away) and I kept trying to shake my sister off coz she'd call back at the wrong time and then I forgot my card number and had to use another, just chaos -_- (back of mind: THIS IS FATE Dx)
Its so grooooss though....@_@ But for a while I really wanted to try again (coz of fail and either placebo or just coz cigarettes) but now I'm mostly over that feeling. -.- I feel like the biggest benefit is I'm resisting impulse and that makes me feel fantastic which is stupid. My life doesn't have enough struggle so I gave myself one hehe.
But other than that its doing bad in school. Calculus is making me depressed right now *fetal position* hahhaha

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